.​.​.​at a Rich Kid's Party

by Raccoon Jay

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released June 3, 2015

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Track Name: Trampoline
It was one small step for man and
One giant leap for all we've ever been.
I met you in the basement sitting on a couch at a rich kid's party...
At a quarter to ten.

And I had just one drink to few
To justify the mess we both got into.
It started with a dirt-bike race through the endless Summer
That happened to end too soon...

...when to trust ourselves was the worst thing we could do.

'Cause we threw rocks at the neon signs
Until the letters spelled words that your mother would not find funny.

And at half-past midnight, we were up in the barn.
The sliding attic door looking out over the moonlit farms.
And while the others weren't looking (they were too busy trying to dance)
You wrapped around my arm

And when the party reached its end
At two-thirty, we went back to the rich kid's house again,
And you whispered in my ear "Yo, there's a trampoline next door...
You wanna hop the fence?"

...when to trust ourselves was our very best defense.

'Cause we threw rocks at the neon signs
Until the letters spelled words that your mother would not find funny.

And we made out on a trampoline
You and I were like fire and kerosene...
When somebody called the cops, and we escaped unseen.

And it was one small step for man and
One giant leap for all we've ever been.
But then your car drove off the road... I could have sworn you were sober
When I helped you in.

And the two of us... we left nothing unsaid when
The next morning I stopped by your hospital bed...
We should have thanked each other for the craziest night but we
Apologized instead...
Track Name: $6.43
A number "5" with one large Coke for $6.43
Scrounging around for that last dime in the backseat of his Jeep

Pulling up, the glass slid open, and his mouth sealed shut
Before his eyes opened up the skies when from her register she looked up

She said "Your total is $6.43.
Either debit or credit or cash, if you please."
He just sat and stared awkwardly back
So she asked "Do you want the receipt in the bag?"

He said "Uh huh," paid, and drove off to the parking lot a block away.
Thinking of her, it took a while to occur that he had left before his order came.

The next day at lunch, he returned in his Jeep, and he planned a couple jokes to say.
Pulling up to the window, he was annoyed to see a skinny hipster-dude working that day

He said "Your total is $6.43.
Either debit or credit or cash, if you please."
Dissatisfied, he paid, breaking a ten.
And the dude gave the food and said "Please come again."

Well he came back and saw her a couple more times
Till he knew her schedule by heart. And in line
He would think of exact words that he'd say to her.
Never could ask her out despite how he'd rehearsed.

But that sugar and grease that he ate everyday
Just to see her had slowly gained him some weight.
And he thought that whenever he saw her face
That his heart skipped a beat, and it thumped out of pace.

But this for him was the truest love he had found...
And in the parking lot a block away, he resolved to man-up and ask her out.

She said "Your total is $6.43.
Either debit or credit or cash, if you please."
He was trying to say "Would you go out with me?"
But she started saying something before he could speak...

"Hey there, stranger, you come here a lot...
I hear you ask the others when I work.
I know you just wanna ask me out...
How about later? Does midnight work?"

Well, a great big smile lit up his face,
But then his heart called it quits and was done.
There's no damn girl in the whole wide world
Worth sixty number "5's" in one month.
Track Name: No. 1 Single
Two months ago, you were taking it slow, with a FourLoko when I asked you out.
You said "Well that'll be fine, but I need some time to live the last one down."

You gave me the rain-check for this train-wreck I would not see coming.
I just couldn't see you started dodging me on every free weekend.

I spoke the truth.
I really hoped that we'd grow closer,
But this song needs you.
And I need my very first number one.

It was mid-December. You could hardly remember the night you ruined it all
You tongue-wrassle'd with Dan, and hardly able to stand you puked all over the mall

I quickly forgave. We all make mistakes, even though he was one of my bros.
No it's cool we got this if we keep it honest. So, whenever you're free let me know.

I spoke the truth.
I really hoped that we'd grow closer,
But this song needs you.
And I need my very first number one.
My very first number one.

I asked about that night, and you got all uptight, blaming it all on Dan.
I said "Well, that's not true." And you said, "Screw you," over and over again.

I asked if you were okay. You said "There's no way you're going out with me now."
You wanted to feel wanted. Took a while till I saw it. Now it makes for a bitching rock out.

I spoke the truth.
I really hoped that we'd grow closer,
But this song needs you.
And I need my very first number one.
My very first number one.
Track Name: Brother
September 8th to July 6th
A fool in love, I caused my best friend to be eclipsed.

And had I said those words that I rehearsed,
I would've said them at the perfect time, and you know, that would be a first

But I chose you, my brother over every other
Because you know it's you that I work and kill myself to be.
...And it's true; she would've made a mother unlike any other.
But it could have collapsed, and all the wreckage would've given you reason
To notice all the selfish in me.

M-my voice it sh-shivered in the t-tool shed,
Making pipes from two-by-fours, talking girls, and smoking cigarettes.

With country music blasting from the radio...
And I remember deciding then that it was right for me to let her go...

'Cause I chose you, my brother over every other
Because you know it's you that I work and kill myself to be.
...And it's true; she would've made a mother unlike any other.
But it could have collapsed, and all the wreckage would've given you reason
To notice all the selfish in me.

It takes just two people to hurt...
The third stings like kerosene... And the forth's a fistful of dirt.

To let her go was easier said than done.
I still regret the words I was too scared to say, and I am still so alone...

But I still have you, my brother over every other
Because you know it's you that I work and kill myself to be.
...And it's true; she would've made a mother unlike any other.
But it could have collapsed, and all the wreckage would've given you reason
To notice all the selfish in me.
Track Name: The Girl I'm Soon To Meet
We were eighteen years at most.
I was the oldest; now I'm not.
Just lit on fire. Just set free.
And when their flames expired, mine had just got caught.

Sweating, sprinting through the husks...
Stepping silent, scared, and smart...
Remembering minutes of that night
Are hours lost in present thought

I hate the drive. I hate the dreams in my backseat.
This upholstery, with every while... we're ripping at the seams.
At the stop sign just ahead of me, a muddy bumper reads:
"I love my God, and I love my country... And the girl I'm soon to meet."

Headlights searching in the dark
The unfamiliar peace they sought
Screaming down those vacant roads
Is a dangerous breath to dusty thoughts.

A weeping slouched over the wheel
A begging cry for something real
A smile to lift my world again
As I had fast forgot it's feel.

I hate the drive. I hate the dreams in my backseat.
This upholstery, with every while... we're ripping at the seams.
I must remind myself of things held dear before they slip away from me (so here goes)
I love my God, and I love my country... And the girl I'm soon to meet.

I hate the drive. I hate the dreams in my backseat.
This upholstery, with every while... we're ripping at the seams.
The soundtrack to my life... a holy song my grandfather gave to me:
"I love my girl... I love my country, and I love my God whose face I go on now to see.
Track Name: Pleasant Shades of Color
It was the summer of '08
We laid there wasted on the lake
In a boat that your dad had lent us

I started rugby to justify
When I'd come home with a blackened eye
I asked for trust and you asked me why

Now everyone knew you had a thing
For real tough guys that would treat you mean
I was too scrawny then to bother

And it wasn't till one day after school
When I saw you crying by the pool
And I swore that one day I would save you

Your black and blue looks up at me
You say it's not so bad
It bleeds a pleasant shade of color

I got into street fights at the start
Got beat up a lot but I still stayed sharp
Eventually, all would bet against me

But right after I got my first pay
They started flashing switch blades in the fray
So I left all that shit forever

Your black and blue looks up at me
You say it's not so bad
It bleeds a pleasant shade of color

Mine's complementary to your own
And yes it looks that bad
But Sammy it was worth the look

Now it had been a while since he hurt you
But that didn't mean anything to me
'Cause "he messed with the wrong guy now"
So I followed him to a parking lot at three... And I said:

"Do you know Sammy Bates?"
He said "not the name but I'd know the face
'Cause I was the one to rough it up."

So I shattered every facial bone I found
With my broken fist. I went to town
So he would remember me forever.

Your black and blue looks up at me
You say it's not so bad
It bleeds a pleasant shade of color

Mine's complementary to your own
And yes it looks that bad
But Sammy it was worth the look
Because I know that Sammy it was worth the look.
Track Name: Fingerless Fist
Did I just hear your mom in the background?
You know her voice really drowns you out
Her opinions are so special
She's too afraid to let you out of the house

When we first met, I didn't know that
They'd let a girl like you play rugby
Whoops! That was callous. I'm so flustered.
My teenage angst is really making this ugly

Let's be sure not to rush to rash conclusions
Because this whole thing has got me disillusioned

(You must have been)
Whispering secrets in her open mouth
And telling her she's pretty 'cause she likes the sound.

And on prom night, I was so pretty
But I was not the one to catch your fancy
Shame on her. But shame on me when
I thought nothing of you two dancing

"Cause I know you like the back of my hand.
I'm pretty sure your first kiss missed.
If I had as many fingers as shits I give
Then I'd have a fingerless fist.

Whispering secrets in her open mouth
And telling her she's pretty 'cause she likes the sound.
Thinking of her when it was you and me
Mashing your faces and clanking teeth.
Whispering secrets in her open mouth
And telling her she's pretty 'cause she likes the sound.

Behind my back but still in my face
You were so good to put me in my place
And when I got mad you said
"You're better than that." I'm better than that

'Cause I called you mom and I think she agrees
You were the worst thing to happen to me
I'm better than that. So shame on me...
'Cause now the whole story is on MP3

Whispering secrets in her open mouth
And telling her she's pretty 'cause she likes the sound.
Whispering secrets in her open mouth
And telling her she's pretty 'cause she likes the sound.
Thinking of her when it was you and me
But tell me, where is she now? Yeah yeah yeah.
Track Name: Till I Find It
I want to be famous so I can throw it all away
And move out to the country where all our dreams could stay

I want my heart vacant so when the right one comes around
That I would get the chance to say... well I haven't got that far.

Till I find it, I will look high, I will look low
No matter how old I will grow
And I won't stop until I can't breathe anymore

It is strange breathing in this air
But this breath... it comes from somewhere
Where the bonfire's bright on a moonlit night
And your smile is there to greet me.

I want to fly airplanes so I can know just what I've missed
'Cause, yeah, I'd rather miss it than not know I had it

I want to feel homesick so I can know just where home is
And if it is nowhere... then I'll run...

Till I find it, I will look high, I will look low
No matter how old I will grow
And I won't stop until I can't breathe anymore

It is strange breathing in this air
But this breath... it comes from somewhere
Where the bonfire's bright on a moonlit night
And your smile is there to greet me.

I want to remember that night one summer when
Love seemed so possible, and I'll wait for that again.

Till I find it, I will look high, I will look low
No matter how old I will grow
And I won't stop until I can't breathe anymore

It is strange breathing in this air
But this breath... it comes from somewhere
Where the bonfire's bright on a moonlit night
And your smile is there to greet me.
Track Name: Hushing In The Dark
...and trusting us is your best bet
We've been around here so long it isn't funny
And your argument to keep quiet is flawed
You don't know how loud we've gotten sometimes
And never caught
Or put to bed
When we were kids we were hushing in the dark
At every sound.
Is that a creaking stair?
No... but if it were we'd be waist-deep in disaster
And it's kind of funny, but mostly sad.
Drinking beer and stories when we were kids
But we're all kids still.
Just a few months south of twenty-one.

Lay down you fears inside
Jump in and come alive and drive, drive.

...and I'll sit in the bed as the truck speeds up
The wind is freezing and my ears are shortly numb
And I hear your laugh
From the rolled-down window
You hit the brakes, and I almost flew right off
And I almost flew
I wish that I could fly
I wish it were safe to start dreaming again
But it's never safe...
And it cannot be...
Or it wouldn't be dreaming

Lay down you fears inside
Jump in and come alive and drive, drive, drive.
Track Name: Hibernation
A daring jump into the water, a hole in the ice
But not even your sweet touch was sobering as our shivers died

It has taken four whole years to find that same look in her eye
To think that such a breathtaking thing could grow lukewarm with time

I thought I'd never forget, but then I found I was sleeping
I'm just an abbreviation
I must be sli-sl-sl-sl-slipping into

There comes a point when colorblindness means nothing at all
When all the talk of other colors are just greys on your wall.

Another jump into the water... only this time more ice.
And when her face touched mine she let me know
Because I felt nothing that night

I swore I'd never forget, but then I found I was sleeping
I'm just an abbreviation
I must be sli-sl-sl-sl-slipping into
Hibernation... hibernation... hibernation.

I think I'll take two more than my dose and lie down again
Because if God won't turn things around I'll take it into my hands

Just like you cannot wake yourself up from deepest of sleeps
I either need you to call out my name, or a night terror's dream

What's the point of tears when we're already drowning
All we are is condensation
Evaporating. Then what's left worth hating?
We should rather freeze than be okay.
Wake me up from the bathtub
Wake me up when you get up
Wake me up.... from this

Hibernation
Track Name: Concrete
Do you recall there was down by the
Creek bed, a secret the
Skeleton of a rusty town car?

Well when I landed I hiked to the
Bottom and saw them these
Teenagers ripping it apart.

Yesterday was rough
But I feel to keep on keeping on ain't enough.
'Cause if all these places keep changing their names
Then I give up.

Do you remember that gutter where we'd
All sit and shudder as our
Hockey pucks would roll to their doom?

Well I heard they filled it with concrete...
In fact, they repaved the whole street...
And I really miss sobbing silent in my room...

Yesterday was rough
But I feel to keep on keeping on ain't enough.
'Cause if all these places keep changing their names
Then I give up.

...And the first who heard this song
Right now is sinking beneath the waves of all that's changing
But I ain't saying all is lost

'Cause just two things still live on:
The first is guilt of what could've been and what I wish was different,
The second is love... I pray I'm not wrong

Because it takes me by surprise
How, brick by brick, we build it up and they tear it down...
The hopeless feelings in our eyes.

'Cause there's concrete in me now...
I poured it in... when I was weak... when I felt empty...
I cannot get rid of it now.


Well I... remember that night when it
All slipped through my hands
These hands that have done more harm than good.

Well, I heard your tears through the receiver, and you
Made of me a believer
That even if it's hard to go on... I still should.